A Deadly Shot

My bother was assaulted and shot. He died. We are mourning. He's lying on our parents bed in their room in Mar Blanco's house. The bed is oriented facing east. It's the opposite direction as it was always there.
We're all sad and crying. My dad looks grey. Mom is as if her face is made of wax. I can't stand the pain. I'm in real soul pain. It hurts so much. I cry and try to let go. It's too much.
I wake up crying.

Kiss in the mouth

The rush of a man who is as impulsive as thunder, flash, and a kiss to seal a job contract.
It's located in a garden poorly  lawned. Children coming in and out. Partytime. Candy. Joy. Laughter. He appears just to say good bye.
He picks someone up. That's why he's here. He's wearing a sailor red coat.
He sees me. Broadly smiles.
Kisses me in the mouth. There's a silence that says it all. He leaves just saying: Yes! A kiss on the lips to seal it all!

A dream in three acts

Three different stories, setting, Jung archetypes
Over the course of an hour I had three different dreams. Each lasted for around 10 minutes. In the dream each one lasted around 24 hours. This is one of the characteristics why I love to dream, time is so subjective...

Fifteen years later

...so I had this weird dream. Once again I am in thinking about students from the past. I met H somehwere in the city. It's a street like those in Lindavista but older, it reminded me la Nueva Santa María.
We went together to his house. In my mind I am daring. I am willing to do everything. I am about to say this to him and he has a sudden and shocking heart attack. I know he is dying. I want to kiss him. I see O and feel guilty immediately. I just say I have to do something to save him. He believes me.

Two words with 'V'

Can you think of two words with 'v'?
This is how I titled this blog entry because this is how I described the dreams I'm about to write to my brother.
In Spanish 'Violación' and 'Vejación'.
Weird how the mind puts things together, right?
The words in English are 'Rape' and 'Vexation'.
The first dream starts with me walking in the street. It was dark and I knew I was in a big city. Not related to my current place of residence: PdC = small town. Another strange thing was that I knew I was going to my work. I worked in a park, we all know which one, right? Except that this park looked like a 'car shop'... Yes, there were cars and a car assembly line. There I said 'Hi' to some of the co-workers. I saw the HR MNGR. He is currently not really well regarded in real life. I was with another woman, I can't remember who she was. It could have been Ms. L recenlty hired to teach some of the classes. Very transparent, almost invisible person. And there we are looking at the insides of a car. Me thinking 'how old this model looks, really!' the man approaches and he simply emits the idea "I will rape you two..."
The instant he mentally communicated that with us, we appeared in another place. It was an office and we were packing. There was a woman with us. She was helping us with this issue. Apparently HR was being taken (to prison presumably) and we had to testify against him. First we had to fill in all sorts of formats and charts.
It's all jumbled with the genre equity procedure the park was undergoing at that moment (last week)...
Next entry on Vejacion coming soon... also dreamt during last weekend.

Memorable yet scary.. dream part II

...and I was so obsessed with the idea of finding Mr. J in this life, that I did find him. I found him on Facebook. I sent him a message but so far he hasn't replied back. I like to think that he never checks his FB because he had so little content and so few photos and applications. It's healthier to think this way than to actually believe he did not remember me or worse he did not want to get back in touch with me... after so much flirting in my dream, eh?

Memorable yet scary.. dream

Last night, it was so hot, I woke up many times.
Around 3 am I woke up because I had to go to the bathroom.
I realized I just had the happiest and scariest dream ever.
The feeling was incredibly real.
In the dream, I was first watching a show. Some kind of comedy show and the stand up comediants were my brother, Mr. P and somebody else. I can't remember who... Mr. S perhaps. Anyway I found myself laughing so much I couldn't breath or stand on my feet. I sat on the floor cracking up. he stood next to me...(don't ask who he is...)
Then a group of us (my friends, people I knew apparently) walked towards the 'tables' something like a restaurant combined with a theather. I sat next to Mr. J. It was this time and although I cannot remember his face very well, I knew he was very handsome and very charming and tender to me. We made plans to meet again the following day, I said 'at around 11, maybe' he replied 'no, let's meet at 8 and we can have breakfast together'. We were totally flirting. Then a woman who was pregnant approached us. I stood up to go ??? somewhere... when I came back she was sitting next to him. I could have been angry before as he was flirting with me knowing the lady was pregnant with his child, but I was simply very happy. Even either G or S told me 'it's not right what you're doing, you know'. I was completely satisfied and proud. After that, in some sort or self conscious moment within the dream, I thought 'how can I have been very happy if somebody is flirting so openly with me? Where is my husband? Then the scariest part came up... I thought 'yes, it's best to stay this way, then I can flirt anyone...I just have K to look after...'